Leading up to it as a kid you think your 15th through 18th years are going to be some of your best. But when it comes down it that cliche to fulfill is up to you. Will you be optimistic or pessimistic about that standard?
To my dismay I’ve noticed I'm extremely pessimistic about everything as a teenager. I find no joy in football games,party,pep rally,etc. I just view everything in high school as stupid and only relevant for the next month maximum.Sure, things like boys and new friends are good and keep me sane for the moment but in reality nobody I'm meeting and talking to now is relevant in the long run.
The way i view it ,high school is just my last 4 years of education thats required by law,and after it I'm only own to find out what relevance my existence has to the world.
I want nothing more than for this chapter of high school and teenage years to be over so i can start a new part of my life. I want my opinions and actions to actually have relevance to something broader than drama or arguments.For now my life is relying off of someone else always. Sure I'm privileged and I'm well aware of that, but i still want more of my life than what i have.Thats a bit selfish but its true.
I envy to live my life in a city like London, new york,or LA where theres someone and something new everyday,instead of coming to the same place every day,see the same faces,hear the same voices,and go to the same classes.But its all temporary and i know that high school ,and this part of my life will end sooner than i think.
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